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Monthly Archives: September 2014

I went for blood work today just to confirm my beta was negative- I knew it would be since I got my period yesterday- but Dr. M just wanted to be 100% positive before I start Letozole tomorrow.

I didn’t POAS once during my 2WW. I usually try not to. But this time I just had a hunch that I wasn’t pregnant. I had no symptoms whatsoever and then CD 1 confirmed it for me yesterday. The nurse just called and told me that my beta was negative so I’m good to start Letrozole tomorrow. I texted my hubby and let him know. He asked if I was ok, and surprisingly, I am. Of course I wish I was pregnant, but I’m not too sad that I’m not this cycle. I’m just ready to move forward. I think because I already suspected I wasn’t pregnant, I kinda prepared myself for AF and the negative beta so it didn’t make it so tough this time- if that makes sense.

I thought we would be doing injectables this month, but I guess not? My only instructions are to take the Letrozole twice a day from CD3-CD7. And then I go next Friday, October 3rd for labs and ultrasound. I can’t really remember, but I thought at my old RE that I got monitored more often while on Letrozole? (Another reason I started this blog- to help keep track of things, I have a horrible memory!) Anyway, I plan on taking both at night, like I did last time. Did any of you ladies do that? Or did you take one in the morning and one at night? I wonder if it makes a difference.

Before I end this post, I just wanted to add that I haven’t had a period since my miscarriage in june/early July and boy has it come with a vengeance!! My moodiness is so bad that I kinda wanna punch my own face!


Just got a call from the nurse ( I was getting my HCG re-checked to be sure I could start letrizole tonight). My HCG was negative, However, she said I recently ovulated…ON MY OWN!! 🙂 My instructions are to disregard the Letrizole and if i don’t get my period in two weeks than call to schedule HCG blood work. 

So I guess I am in my 2WW now. She didn’t say when I ovulated, just that it was recently. So I’m gonna cover all my bases and have some fun with hubby after work 🙂 

I’m so happy that my body did what it’s supposed to do, and on its own, but i’m slightly annoyed and nervous. I wish that I was being monitored and knew how big of a follicle I had or how many or which side they were on. But now that I am in the dreaded 2WW I will be checking for every symptom and consulting with Dr. Google :/

Wouldn’t it be crazy if this were the cycle that gives us our baby?! Nothing thus far has been normal with this TTC journey, so ya never know! 


Dr. M called me yesterday and said that my blood work checking for chromosome issues came back normal, my HCG was negative (which I suspected), and my progesterone was low showing that I hadn’t ovulated on my own (suspected that, as well). He told me to come in today and get more blood work done to check my HCG again before he starts me on Letrizole. Once I go (in about 10 minutes) he said he will call me this afternoon with results- if my HCG is negative than I can go ahead and start Letrizole tonight. 

I haven’t gotten a period since my miscarriage in the beginning of July. So my question is, isn’t Letrizole supposed to be taken on day 3 of your cycle? Shouldn’t i get a period before starting Letrizole? Will Letrizole give me a period? I’m kind of confused. Any feed back is greatly appreciated. Thank you!! 

The other day was a bad one. The RE sent us to have blood work done to check for any chromosome abnormalities. Insurance covered my blood work but my husbands was $824.00!! I broke down and cried and said we couldn’t keep dishing out money like this. I felt defeated and was ready to give up. My poor husband always has to pick up my broken pieces. He texted me lyrics to a song called “Hope in Front of Me” by Danny Gokey. The lyrics spoke to me- and my anger, grief, tears, and heartache subsided. I know that those feelings will unfortunately return in my journey, but for now my wonderful husband saved the day, yet again! I’m posting the lyrics below and hoping it can help someone feel a little better today 🙂 Here’s to Hope!! 

DANNY GOKEY LYRICS – Hope In Front Of Me//

“Hope In Front Of Me”

I’ve been running through rain
That I thought would never end
Trying to make it on faith
In a struggle against the wind
I’ve seen the dark and the broken places
But I know in my soul
No matter how bad it gets
I’ll be alright

There’s hope in front of me
There’s a light, I still see it
There’s a hand still holding me
Even when I don’t believe it
I might be down but I’m not dead
There’s better days still up ahead
Even after all I’ve seen
There’s hope in front of me

There’s a place at the end of the storm
You finally find
Where the hurt and the tears and the pain
All fall behind

You open up your eyes and up ahead
There’s a big sun shining
Right then and there you realize
You’ll be alright

There’s hope in front of me
There’s a light, I still see it
There’s a hand still holding me
Even when I don’t believe it
I might be down but I’m not dead
There’s better days still up ahead
Even after all I’ve seen
There’s hope in front of me

There’s a hope still burning
I can feel it rising trough the night
And my world’s still turning
I can feel your love here by my side

You’re my hope
You’re the light, I still see it
Your hands are holding me
Even when I don’t believe it
I’ve got to believe
I still have hope
You are my hope

(Lyrics taken from http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/dannygokey/hopeinfrontofme.html)